Our Decision On Homeschooling

  This year has been quite a struggle on my heart thinking about putting Tenlee into school. I have just had this weird feeling and would literally break down at the thought of putting her in kindergarten. I haven't been able to figure out if it is the "first child going to school freak out", or if it has been the Lord working in my heart. I have literally been going back and forth on what to do, and homeschooling has been on the back of my mind for quite a while. I know Tenlee will LOVE school, she is my social kid and thrives being around people. But there has just been something holding me back on putting her in a public school. Don't get me wrong...I am all for public schooling...I have never and will never be against it. But our world is turning into this place that makes me so fearful for my children and their hearts. I have never really been completely for homeschooling for many different reasons. But now as my daughter is approaching kindergarten, I am scared beyond my mind,when I look at our world and what is now the new normal way of living. And for our family, homeschooling seems to be the right way to go, at least for now. It is amazing how before you have kids, you think or even say "when I have kids I will never...", well that how is homeschooling is for us now.
   I have always felt the Lord lead me in certain areas of my life and I know for sure he is leading me to home school my kids right now. I am the type of person that gets very overwhelmed very easily. So as I started looking and educating myself on this idea I saw how much work was going to really be involved and it absolutely terrified me. I told myself, no, you cannot do this. Just send her to school and take the easy road. But about 10 minutes later I had this peace come over me and I knew the Lord was telling me it would be OK and I COULD do it. I have never been so sure of his calling then now. And that makes me so excited to start this journey with my little girl!

She got her first book in the mail for school. She was so excited! I 

had been hearing great things on this book so I thought we would try it out! 

We ordered her a board for the wall in the playroom and she was so excited, 

but when we got it I noticed it was bent and had a hole in it. So they sent us a 

new one and she was glad it finally came so daddy could hang it up for her!

Using her new school desk we got for her

I just love how this little corner turned out for her. Everything is just perfect! I like how it is a special place for her to be able to sit and focus, organized for me and big enough to include both kiddos. 

I have always wanted different curtains for the playroom, but just stuck with my free hand-me down ones for years. I found a great deal on some and absolutly LOVE the color. I love how it just makes the room look so warm and welcoming. Since this is a room that we will be spending a lot of time in, I wanted to make it bright and cheery!  

I thank Christ Jesus our Lord, who has given me strength, that he considered 

me trustworthy, appointing me to his service. 1 Timothy 1:12

I saw this verse about a week ago and I think it is a great verse for me to memorize and always remember. I know this journey will be a very hard and a challenging one. But I know with all of my heart that Christ is calling me to start this journey so I can only rely and completely trust him as I start down this path. And also thank him daily for showing his way to me and for giving me this opportunity to teach my daughter through him.